Infinity - Fourteenth Chance
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zeon_avalantheTitle : Infinity
Fourteenth Chance
Author : rei *me*
Rating : pg
Pairing : HikaBu [friendship] ; YabuYama & HikaYama [parentship ?]
Disclaimer : Everyone knows that HSJ belong to JE. .sadly. .T_T
Summary : there are infinity chances spread ahead of us, if we just would see..
Author's note : Another fic presented for you.. It was mostly about HikaBu.. but since i'm a Ryosuke-biased, his appearance was kinda important too here.. *whacked*
Author's Note 2 : uhm, sorry this took long. i was just not into the mood of writing lately.. *whacked*
Infinity
Fourteenth Chance
"Konnichiwa."
"Yama-chan ! Where have you been ? Don't you know that we were worried sick that you didn't showed up at the said time ? And you didn't answering your phones as well !" Yabu quickly bombarding him with questions the moment Ryosuke entering their dressing room.
"Gomen ne, Yabu-kun." Ryosuke bow down his head, not daring to look into the older boy's eyes.
"You should've at least tell us if you're going to be late or something ! And not making us worried like this !" Yabu continue on with his scoldings.
"Gomen, hontou ni gomen." Ryosuke bow his head more. His eyes filled with tears, but he tries to hold it as hard as he can.
"Maa ne, Yabu. It's okay ne ? At least he's safe here now, right ? No need to scold him more, ne." Takaki try to calm the raging boy down.
"It is not okay, Takaki ! What if something happened to him and none of us know it ? He should've at least message one of us or something !" Yabu now turn and yell at Takaki.
"Hontou ni gomenasai." Ryosuke said softly as he bows deeper. "I know that this is my fault for not telling you anything. But I was just, sick of everything."
"Ha ?"
Ryosuke lift his head slowly. "This was not the only time I came to practice late. This was not the only time I told none of you about where am I going. And this was definitely not my first time coming to practice. But somehow, I felt like a stranger here. People kept fussing over me if I showed up a minute late. My phone won't stop ringing from the constant messages asking me if I'm okay. I'm still the Yamada Ryosuke I used to be. I don't need to be babied all the time. I'm glad that you care for me, but not like this. It's as if I'm a different person now."
None of them said anything after Ryosuke's little speech.
Yuto walks hesitantly toward Ryosuke's spot. "Yama-chan..."
"Yappari." Ryosuke cut him off with a bitter smile. "I think it was wrong for me to decide this. I was just being impulsive after all."
"What are you talking about, Ryosuke ?" Chinen ask nervously.
"Gomenasai. I will just leave the group as it is. I won't troubling you ever again. Shitsureishimasu." Ryosuke bow deeply, and before anyone can react to what he was saying, he had already left the room.
"Did he just stating that he quit JUMP ?" Ryutaro inquire after a few minutes in silence.
As if being slapped back into reality, the rest of them gasp at the realization.
"This is my fault. I shouldn't have yelled at him." Yabu pace nervously around the room. "I, I will go after him." He's about to leave the room when a hand stopped him.
"No, Kota. You better stay here. You're not in your right mind." Hikaru tell him firmly.
"But Hikaru-"
"I will go instead." And without further words, Hikaru grab his bag and rushed out the room.
***
Ryosuke takes a deep breath as he watch the scenery in front of him. He felt really bad after saying those words toward his friends. More over, just after he said that he'll learn to accept them just the way they are.
"But maybe this is the best for us. I can only be a burden for them if I'm continuing this." He smiles sadly as he watches the Sakura petals falling down beautifully.
"But won't it hurt your heart for not being able to do the things you love ?"
Ryosuke was startled at the sudden voice coming from behind him. Turning his body, he catch a sight of Hikaru standing not too far from behind him.
"Hikaru-kun ?"
Hikaru just smile as he walks closer and make a seat beside him. "I know you will be here. You always came here when you were troubled back then. You said that this park always gave you calm, making you feel at ease."
Ryosuke smile slightly before returning his gaze to the view in front of him.
"You know, Kota was just worried. You know him when he's worried." Hikaru try to start the conversation.
"I know he was." Ryosuke agree without turning his gaze to his side.
"Dakara, I think your words back then was a bit harsh. You two were hot-headed back then. I really think you should rethink of things you said, Yama-chan." Hikaru try to persuade the boy.
"I know. I will." Without even changing his tone, Ryosuke said it flatly.
"Yama-chan-"
"I'm tired. I guess I'll just go home. Thanks for the talk Hikaru-kun." Ryosuke stand to his feet. He bows a bit before leaving Hikaru dumbfounded on his place.
"C-chotto Yama-chan !" Hikaru stood up as well to catch the boy.
"Hikaru-kun, I'm okay, really. I just need sometimes to be alone. I will rethink about this later, really. In times, I will. Just, can you just please leave me alone for the time being ?" Ryosuke halt in his steps as he said it in a trembling voice.
"Yama-chan, did, did something happened ?" Hikaru ask quietly, his voice filled with anticipation.
"Nothing !" Ryosuke snapped. "Nothing..."
"Yama-chan." Hikaru walk closer and enveloping the younger boy in an embrace. "You know you can always talk things to me. This is just not you. Please let me share the burden."
At the sincerity of Hikaru's words, Ryosuke finally break down. He hugs the older boy tight as he cries his heart out.
After a while, Hikaru finally manage to calm the boy a bit. He brought him back to sit on the bench and ask the boy to tell him what is wrong. In the end, Ryosuke finally spilled all of his worries. On how he felt suffocated by the too-much care the others were giving him. On how he felt miserable whenever he failed doing things now. On how he sometimes felt that death was just an inch away from him, gnawing at him, mocking him.
"I don't want to die just yet, Hikaru-kun. I still have so many things I want to do. I don't want to die. Not yet." And once again, Ryosuke's tears flow down his face like a river.
And all this while, Hikaru can only rub the boy's back in a soothing way to make him feel at least slightly better. He felt so helpless like this. Just, helpless.
~~~~~tbc
i hope i'm not too rusty to continuing this fic.. gomen that this took forever to update..
*bows*
you read, you leave comment so i could give you a *chuu* in return~
douzo~
Fourteenth Chance
Author : rei *me*
Rating : pg
Pairing : HikaBu [friendship] ; YabuYama & HikaYama [parentship ?]
Disclaimer : Everyone knows that HSJ belong to JE. .sadly. .T_T
Summary : there are infinity chances spread ahead of us, if we just would see..
Author's note : Another fic presented for you.. It was mostly about HikaBu.. but since i'm a Ryosuke-biased, his appearance was kinda important too here.. *whacked*
Author's Note 2 : uhm, sorry this took long. i was just not into the mood of writing lately.. *whacked*
Infinity
Fourteenth Chance
"Konnichiwa."
"Yama-chan ! Where have you been ? Don't you know that we were worried sick that you didn't showed up at the said time ? And you didn't answering your phones as well !" Yabu quickly bombarding him with questions the moment Ryosuke entering their dressing room.
"Gomen ne, Yabu-kun." Ryosuke bow down his head, not daring to look into the older boy's eyes.
"You should've at least tell us if you're going to be late or something ! And not making us worried like this !" Yabu continue on with his scoldings.
"Gomen, hontou ni gomen." Ryosuke bow his head more. His eyes filled with tears, but he tries to hold it as hard as he can.
"Maa ne, Yabu. It's okay ne ? At least he's safe here now, right ? No need to scold him more, ne." Takaki try to calm the raging boy down.
"It is not okay, Takaki ! What if something happened to him and none of us know it ? He should've at least message one of us or something !" Yabu now turn and yell at Takaki.
"Hontou ni gomenasai." Ryosuke said softly as he bows deeper. "I know that this is my fault for not telling you anything. But I was just, sick of everything."
"Ha ?"
Ryosuke lift his head slowly. "This was not the only time I came to practice late. This was not the only time I told none of you about where am I going. And this was definitely not my first time coming to practice. But somehow, I felt like a stranger here. People kept fussing over me if I showed up a minute late. My phone won't stop ringing from the constant messages asking me if I'm okay. I'm still the Yamada Ryosuke I used to be. I don't need to be babied all the time. I'm glad that you care for me, but not like this. It's as if I'm a different person now."
None of them said anything after Ryosuke's little speech.
Yuto walks hesitantly toward Ryosuke's spot. "Yama-chan..."
"Yappari." Ryosuke cut him off with a bitter smile. "I think it was wrong for me to decide this. I was just being impulsive after all."
"What are you talking about, Ryosuke ?" Chinen ask nervously.
"Gomenasai. I will just leave the group as it is. I won't troubling you ever again. Shitsureishimasu." Ryosuke bow deeply, and before anyone can react to what he was saying, he had already left the room.
"Did he just stating that he quit JUMP ?" Ryutaro inquire after a few minutes in silence.
As if being slapped back into reality, the rest of them gasp at the realization.
"This is my fault. I shouldn't have yelled at him." Yabu pace nervously around the room. "I, I will go after him." He's about to leave the room when a hand stopped him.
"No, Kota. You better stay here. You're not in your right mind." Hikaru tell him firmly.
"But Hikaru-"
"I will go instead." And without further words, Hikaru grab his bag and rushed out the room.
***
Ryosuke takes a deep breath as he watch the scenery in front of him. He felt really bad after saying those words toward his friends. More over, just after he said that he'll learn to accept them just the way they are.
"But maybe this is the best for us. I can only be a burden for them if I'm continuing this." He smiles sadly as he watches the Sakura petals falling down beautifully.
"But won't it hurt your heart for not being able to do the things you love ?"
Ryosuke was startled at the sudden voice coming from behind him. Turning his body, he catch a sight of Hikaru standing not too far from behind him.
"Hikaru-kun ?"
Hikaru just smile as he walks closer and make a seat beside him. "I know you will be here. You always came here when you were troubled back then. You said that this park always gave you calm, making you feel at ease."
Ryosuke smile slightly before returning his gaze to the view in front of him.
"You know, Kota was just worried. You know him when he's worried." Hikaru try to start the conversation.
"I know he was." Ryosuke agree without turning his gaze to his side.
"Dakara, I think your words back then was a bit harsh. You two were hot-headed back then. I really think you should rethink of things you said, Yama-chan." Hikaru try to persuade the boy.
"I know. I will." Without even changing his tone, Ryosuke said it flatly.
"Yama-chan-"
"I'm tired. I guess I'll just go home. Thanks for the talk Hikaru-kun." Ryosuke stand to his feet. He bows a bit before leaving Hikaru dumbfounded on his place.
"C-chotto Yama-chan !" Hikaru stood up as well to catch the boy.
"Hikaru-kun, I'm okay, really. I just need sometimes to be alone. I will rethink about this later, really. In times, I will. Just, can you just please leave me alone for the time being ?" Ryosuke halt in his steps as he said it in a trembling voice.
"Yama-chan, did, did something happened ?" Hikaru ask quietly, his voice filled with anticipation.
"Nothing !" Ryosuke snapped. "Nothing..."
"Yama-chan." Hikaru walk closer and enveloping the younger boy in an embrace. "You know you can always talk things to me. This is just not you. Please let me share the burden."
At the sincerity of Hikaru's words, Ryosuke finally break down. He hugs the older boy tight as he cries his heart out.
After a while, Hikaru finally manage to calm the boy a bit. He brought him back to sit on the bench and ask the boy to tell him what is wrong. In the end, Ryosuke finally spilled all of his worries. On how he felt suffocated by the too-much care the others were giving him. On how he felt miserable whenever he failed doing things now. On how he sometimes felt that death was just an inch away from him, gnawing at him, mocking him.
"I don't want to die just yet, Hikaru-kun. I still have so many things I want to do. I don't want to die. Not yet." And once again, Ryosuke's tears flow down his face like a river.
And all this while, Hikaru can only rub the boy's back in a soothing way to make him feel at least slightly better. He felt so helpless like this. Just, helpless.
~~~~~tbc
i hope i'm not too rusty to continuing this fic.. gomen that this took forever to update..
*bows*
you read, you leave comment so i could give you a *chuu* in return~
douzo~
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Date: 2011-06-09 12:20 pm (UTC)So happy that you did! :):):)
Thank you sooo much! I hope Yama-chan will take back what he said to Yabu...
More updates please!!!! Onegai! :):)
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Date: 2011-06-09 12:43 pm (UTC)*bows*
dou ita ne~
and un, i hope he will as well~ XDD
i'll try to update asap !!
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Date: 2011-06-09 01:07 pm (UTC)T0T
Hikaru's the calm dad :)
will wait for ur update!! Love this!!
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Date: 2011-06-09 01:12 pm (UTC)TToTT
yepp, hikaru will always be a nice daddy~
will try to update asap~
arigachuu na~
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Date: 2011-06-09 01:21 pm (UTC)Just noticed this a few moment ago...:p
Btw, also love this one<3<3<3<3
Hope Yama-chan take back what he said to Yabu...XXXOOOO
Hooray for Hika-chan for calming Yama-chan..XD
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Date: 2011-06-09 01:35 pm (UTC)aww~ arigachuu~
well, i hope so~ XDD
why of course~ hika is such a nice daddy, isn't he ?
XDD
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Date: 2011-06-09 01:39 pm (UTC)n love him more for that<3<3<3<3
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Date: 2011-06-09 02:24 pm (UTC)Hikaru looks so serious here!!
and Yama-chan was able to trust him and tel him what was feeling
Poor Yama-chan... I can't imagine being in his place... must be a horrible feeling!
Thanks for this chapter!!
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Date: 2011-06-10 01:58 am (UTC)papa must be serious in times like this~
so ryo-chan can feel secure~
me too.. i'm feeling sad for him..
TToTT
dou ita~
arigachuu for dropping by as well~
Date: 2011-06-10 04:58 pm (UTC)If he died....can't imagine his familys feeling
But even tough his disesae is leukemia
Not altough his nose bleeding huh ?
However impatient for the next parts
And sorry for my bad english
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Date: 2011-06-13 11:49 am (UTC)me neither..
TToTT
ahh, that time hasn't come.. since i just can't made him suffer for more.. TToTT
ii yo~
thx for dropping by~
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Date: 2012-01-08 01:29 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2012-01-08 05:09 am (UTC)well, no worries !! i have a huge stocks of tissue here~
XDD
thanks for reading and commenting~