When We're No Longer Here - Chapter 27
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zeon_avalantheChapter 27 - Clenching Your Heart
Author : rei *me*
Rating : pg
Disclaimer : Everyone knows that HSJ belong to JE. .sadly. .T_T
Summary : Imagine what will happen, if your presence are no longer exist. Imagine what will hapen, if you're no longer known by any. Imagine what will happen, if the one you can count on is only, you. [I'm suck even at summaries, I know. .T_T]
Author's note : okay.. so here's the deal.. i'll try updating every sundays.. and if there's a time when i don't update anything at sunday, then i probably is at work.. pls bear with it.. i'll try to update regularly since now on.. TToTT
When We’re No Longer Here – Chapter 27 – Clenching Your Heart
"There you go." Rui's voice snapped Yabu out of his trance.
"How is he ?" He asks hurriedly.
"Definitely not fine. He lost too much blood already. It's a good thing that we found him this soon, or else..." She trailed off, and Yabu know that he doesn't have to be a genius to know what will happen if they were just a minute late.
"What should we do now then ?" Yabu ask worriedly as he hugs the body close, only to feel the heat radiating from Ryosuke. "He's burning up."
"Yes, of course. He'd been staying under the rain for hours and he's not fully recovered yet." Rui said matter of factly. "Just let him rest now. I'll tell you what happened." She adds as if knowing what's running inside the oldest member of JUMP.
Yabu only nod as he picks the boy's body up, feeling somehow sick at the smell of metalic blood smearing inside the shower. He brings the boy to his room, leaving Rui behind to clean up the mess. Once there he laid him gently on Daiki's bed.
"I'm sure Dai-chan won't mind if his bed got wet." He said to himself as he reaches for the closet and pick a nice and warm clothes for the boy before changing his clothes carefully.
Once he finished, he moves Ryosuke toward his own bed and tuck him in. His hand briefly caressing the bandage around the boy's wound, feeling guilty out of sudden. He can hear the door's creaking open and feeling the girl's presence.
"Tell me what happened." It was not a request, but a demand.
He can hear Rui taking a deep breath. "He met up with my father this afternoon.”
Yabu's eyes widen. "What ?"
“It was Ryosuke’s request. He said there was something he needed to tell my father, so I let him did. He told me not to disturb his talk with my father, but I couldn’t help it so I waited outside to overhear their conversation.” Explained the girl
“And then ?” Yabu pry for more.
“My father was so mad when Ryosuke told him that my brother never blamed him for his death. So he shouted at Ryosuke, that he was just a hindrance to all of us.” Rui said quietly.
"What ? But he's not !" Yabu cry out in anger.
"Yes, we all pretty much now that he's not. But apparently, he thought that anything my father said is true." Rui sigh deply. "Otherwise, he wouldn't do this."
"Ryosuke..." Yabu caress the boy's hair.
"Anyway, does any of you by any chance have the same bloodtype like Ryosuke ?" Rui ask, suddenly changing the topic.
"Well, no. He's the only B amongst us. Why ?" Yabu frown.
Rui sigh again. "I thought so. Well, Ryosuke lost quite a number of blood. And I think that he'll need a transfusion just in case. It will be better if it was just between you, but I think it can't be helped. I guess I'll go find some from the bloodbank, since I'm not a B myself."
"Sorry for troubling you." Yabu turn at her and bow.
"It's nothing really. I've promised that I'll take care of him anyway. Beside, he helped my father back to his senses anyway. So it’s just fair for me to do this for him.” Rui smile gently.
Yabu frown. “What do you mean ?”
“I burst in before their conversation finished ‘cause I thought it was too much already. After that, my father fled. It was Ryosuke who told me to go and talk with my father, so I left him and catch my father up. We talked and we cleared things up. He’s alright for now. I just never thought that Ryosuke would ran away when we talked. I shouldn’t have left him alone.” Rui confess guiltily.
“It wasn’t your fault. It was just in Ryosuke’s nature. Let’s just thank the God that we’re all fine ne ?” Yabu cooed the girl.
“Thank you.” Rui smile. “Well, I think I should be going now. Take care of him 'kay ? I'll be back as soon as possible." And with that, Rui bow slightly before leaving the room.
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Ryosuke open up his eyes slowly and greeted by the warm light and the sound of chirping bird. "Am I dead ?"
"Sorry to disappoint you, but no, you're not dead, yet."
Ryosuke was taken aback by the voice and quickly sit up only to wince as his head is spinning from his sudden movement.
"Easy, easy." The other person gently push him back to lay down.
"Yabu-kun ? What happened ?" Ryosuke ask weakly.
"Well, let's see." Yabu start as he seated himself on the bed, next to Ryosuke's body. "You came home last night drenched in rain and immediately running to the bathroom. After some times, we kinda worried so we checked on you. You were fainted at the bathroom. It seemed that you caught a cold. Quite a bad one since you were out for 3 days already including today." He lied.
"Don't lie Yabu-kun. I'm not stupid. I at least remember until I cutted my wrist. My question is, why am I here ? Why did you save me ?" Ryosuke ask coldly this time.
Yabu take a deep breath. "Well, you were right, we found you fainted after you cutted yourself. It was a good thing we found you sooner than later. Really, what were you thinking ? Doing that stupid stunt of yours."
"I didn't ask you to save me. I wanted to die already. Why did you save me anyway ? It will only add your list of burdens." Ryosuke turn his head away.
"Don't say things like that Ryosuke. You know that you're not a burden to us." Yabu cooed the boy.
"You know, I think you'd better off without me. All of you." Whispered the boy sadly.
"What do you mean ?" Yabu ask him, feeling uneasy out of nowhere.
"I could only steal things from you. I took away everything from you. The fame, the name, the title, everything. You used to be the one standing in front with me dancing behind. But it was all reversed now. I took it all away from you. You had to learn some new tricks to regain the spotlight I stole." He smiles bitterly. "I could only be a hindrance for you all."
"Ryosuke ! We're not- !"
"Don't say that you don't mind Yabu-kun. I know you do. Though you denied it, I know that you all have a bad thought about me for at least once." Ryosuke cut him.
Yabu sigh deeply. "Maybe you're right. I mean, we're human too. We might feel envious at you once or twice, but it doesn't mean that we stopped caring. That's just the way it is, and we all understand it very well. I know you do too."
"I do." Ryosuke said curtly. "But I don't care. Not anymore. So why should you ?" When he hears no response, he continues. "I don't need you to care about me. I don't need you to save me either. You could have just let me die and I would be happy..."
‘SLAP !’
Ryosuke widen his eyes at the stinging feeling on his left cheek. He raised his good hand slowly to touch the place where Yabu just hit him.
"Don't you even try to think about that again." The older boy gritted his teeth. "EVER !"
Ryosuke could only stare at him for a good five min. His mind still couldn't comprehend of what had just happened. He never saw Yabu get mad. At least not this furious.
But Yabu was beyond surprise when the boy suddenly crying.
"Then w-what am I s-supposed to do ? What a-am I supposed t-to think ?" Ryosuke ask ever so quietly.
Yabu retreated his shaking hand and slowly he wrapped his arms around the boy and engulf him in a warm embrace. It sure hurts his back. But it worth the pain as long as he could erase the insecurities that the younger boy felt.
At the weight which suddenly landed on him, Ryosuke thought of pushing it off, but when the warm hands start to stroke his hair, he stopped all of his intention and just cry harder. Letting all of his worries flow along with his tears.
"Shhh... It's okay. You don't have to be afraid. We're here with you... " Yabu stroke Ryosuke's hair softly as he could feel the body beneath him shaking.
"Doushiyo, Yabu-kun ? I don't understand !" Came the muffled voice.
"Shhh.. Let's not think about that. You don't have to be worried." Yabu keep trying to calm the boy down.
Eventually, Yabu pull himself up as he felt the shaking and the sobs gone. He smiles sadly as he watch the boy cried himself to sleep. He strokes Ryosuke's hair one last time before pecking on his forehead.
"Oyasumi." He whispers quietly, and carefully leave the room.
~~~~~tbc
the story is almost ending !!!
it's only about 2/3 chappie left~
and i'm soooo happy today becoz SUMMARY DVD is released today !!
and sumbody already uploaded it !!!
so going to stay and download it all~
anyway, pls review minna~
Author : rei *me*
Rating : pg
Disclaimer : Everyone knows that HSJ belong to JE. .sadly. .T_T
Summary : Imagine what will happen, if your presence are no longer exist. Imagine what will hapen, if you're no longer known by any. Imagine what will happen, if the one you can count on is only, you. [I'm suck even at summaries, I know. .T_T]
Author's note : okay.. so here's the deal.. i'll try updating every sundays.. and if there's a time when i don't update anything at sunday, then i probably is at work.. pls bear with it.. i'll try to update regularly since now on.. TToTT
When We’re No Longer Here – Chapter 27 – Clenching Your Heart
"There you go." Rui's voice snapped Yabu out of his trance.
"How is he ?" He asks hurriedly.
"Definitely not fine. He lost too much blood already. It's a good thing that we found him this soon, or else..." She trailed off, and Yabu know that he doesn't have to be a genius to know what will happen if they were just a minute late.
"What should we do now then ?" Yabu ask worriedly as he hugs the body close, only to feel the heat radiating from Ryosuke. "He's burning up."
"Yes, of course. He'd been staying under the rain for hours and he's not fully recovered yet." Rui said matter of factly. "Just let him rest now. I'll tell you what happened." She adds as if knowing what's running inside the oldest member of JUMP.
Yabu only nod as he picks the boy's body up, feeling somehow sick at the smell of metalic blood smearing inside the shower. He brings the boy to his room, leaving Rui behind to clean up the mess. Once there he laid him gently on Daiki's bed.
"I'm sure Dai-chan won't mind if his bed got wet." He said to himself as he reaches for the closet and pick a nice and warm clothes for the boy before changing his clothes carefully.
Once he finished, he moves Ryosuke toward his own bed and tuck him in. His hand briefly caressing the bandage around the boy's wound, feeling guilty out of sudden. He can hear the door's creaking open and feeling the girl's presence.
"Tell me what happened." It was not a request, but a demand.
He can hear Rui taking a deep breath. "He met up with my father this afternoon.”
Yabu's eyes widen. "What ?"
“It was Ryosuke’s request. He said there was something he needed to tell my father, so I let him did. He told me not to disturb his talk with my father, but I couldn’t help it so I waited outside to overhear their conversation.” Explained the girl
“And then ?” Yabu pry for more.
“My father was so mad when Ryosuke told him that my brother never blamed him for his death. So he shouted at Ryosuke, that he was just a hindrance to all of us.” Rui said quietly.
"What ? But he's not !" Yabu cry out in anger.
"Yes, we all pretty much now that he's not. But apparently, he thought that anything my father said is true." Rui sigh deply. "Otherwise, he wouldn't do this."
"Ryosuke..." Yabu caress the boy's hair.
"Anyway, does any of you by any chance have the same bloodtype like Ryosuke ?" Rui ask, suddenly changing the topic.
"Well, no. He's the only B amongst us. Why ?" Yabu frown.
Rui sigh again. "I thought so. Well, Ryosuke lost quite a number of blood. And I think that he'll need a transfusion just in case. It will be better if it was just between you, but I think it can't be helped. I guess I'll go find some from the bloodbank, since I'm not a B myself."
"Sorry for troubling you." Yabu turn at her and bow.
"It's nothing really. I've promised that I'll take care of him anyway. Beside, he helped my father back to his senses anyway. So it’s just fair for me to do this for him.” Rui smile gently.
Yabu frown. “What do you mean ?”
“I burst in before their conversation finished ‘cause I thought it was too much already. After that, my father fled. It was Ryosuke who told me to go and talk with my father, so I left him and catch my father up. We talked and we cleared things up. He’s alright for now. I just never thought that Ryosuke would ran away when we talked. I shouldn’t have left him alone.” Rui confess guiltily.
“It wasn’t your fault. It was just in Ryosuke’s nature. Let’s just thank the God that we’re all fine ne ?” Yabu cooed the girl.
“Thank you.” Rui smile. “Well, I think I should be going now. Take care of him 'kay ? I'll be back as soon as possible." And with that, Rui bow slightly before leaving the room.
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Ryosuke open up his eyes slowly and greeted by the warm light and the sound of chirping bird. "Am I dead ?"
"Sorry to disappoint you, but no, you're not dead, yet."
Ryosuke was taken aback by the voice and quickly sit up only to wince as his head is spinning from his sudden movement.
"Easy, easy." The other person gently push him back to lay down.
"Yabu-kun ? What happened ?" Ryosuke ask weakly.
"Well, let's see." Yabu start as he seated himself on the bed, next to Ryosuke's body. "You came home last night drenched in rain and immediately running to the bathroom. After some times, we kinda worried so we checked on you. You were fainted at the bathroom. It seemed that you caught a cold. Quite a bad one since you were out for 3 days already including today." He lied.
"Don't lie Yabu-kun. I'm not stupid. I at least remember until I cutted my wrist. My question is, why am I here ? Why did you save me ?" Ryosuke ask coldly this time.
Yabu take a deep breath. "Well, you were right, we found you fainted after you cutted yourself. It was a good thing we found you sooner than later. Really, what were you thinking ? Doing that stupid stunt of yours."
"I didn't ask you to save me. I wanted to die already. Why did you save me anyway ? It will only add your list of burdens." Ryosuke turn his head away.
"Don't say things like that Ryosuke. You know that you're not a burden to us." Yabu cooed the boy.
"You know, I think you'd better off without me. All of you." Whispered the boy sadly.
"What do you mean ?" Yabu ask him, feeling uneasy out of nowhere.
"I could only steal things from you. I took away everything from you. The fame, the name, the title, everything. You used to be the one standing in front with me dancing behind. But it was all reversed now. I took it all away from you. You had to learn some new tricks to regain the spotlight I stole." He smiles bitterly. "I could only be a hindrance for you all."
"Ryosuke ! We're not- !"
"Don't say that you don't mind Yabu-kun. I know you do. Though you denied it, I know that you all have a bad thought about me for at least once." Ryosuke cut him.
Yabu sigh deeply. "Maybe you're right. I mean, we're human too. We might feel envious at you once or twice, but it doesn't mean that we stopped caring. That's just the way it is, and we all understand it very well. I know you do too."
"I do." Ryosuke said curtly. "But I don't care. Not anymore. So why should you ?" When he hears no response, he continues. "I don't need you to care about me. I don't need you to save me either. You could have just let me die and I would be happy..."
‘SLAP !’
Ryosuke widen his eyes at the stinging feeling on his left cheek. He raised his good hand slowly to touch the place where Yabu just hit him.
"Don't you even try to think about that again." The older boy gritted his teeth. "EVER !"
Ryosuke could only stare at him for a good five min. His mind still couldn't comprehend of what had just happened. He never saw Yabu get mad. At least not this furious.
But Yabu was beyond surprise when the boy suddenly crying.
"Then w-what am I s-supposed to do ? What a-am I supposed t-to think ?" Ryosuke ask ever so quietly.
Yabu retreated his shaking hand and slowly he wrapped his arms around the boy and engulf him in a warm embrace. It sure hurts his back. But it worth the pain as long as he could erase the insecurities that the younger boy felt.
At the weight which suddenly landed on him, Ryosuke thought of pushing it off, but when the warm hands start to stroke his hair, he stopped all of his intention and just cry harder. Letting all of his worries flow along with his tears.
"Shhh... It's okay. You don't have to be afraid. We're here with you... " Yabu stroke Ryosuke's hair softly as he could feel the body beneath him shaking.
"Doushiyo, Yabu-kun ? I don't understand !" Came the muffled voice.
"Shhh.. Let's not think about that. You don't have to be worried." Yabu keep trying to calm the boy down.
Eventually, Yabu pull himself up as he felt the shaking and the sobs gone. He smiles sadly as he watch the boy cried himself to sleep. He strokes Ryosuke's hair one last time before pecking on his forehead.
"Oyasumi." He whispers quietly, and carefully leave the room.
~~~~~tbc
the story is almost ending !!!
it's only about 2/3 chappie left~
and i'm soooo happy today becoz SUMMARY DVD is released today !!
and sumbody already uploaded it !!!
so going to stay and download it all~
anyway, pls review minna~
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Date: 2011-01-12 01:36 pm (UTC)Lucky i was online!!
*runs to read*
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Date: 2011-01-12 01:49 pm (UTC)"Sorry to disappoint you, but no, you're not dead, yet."
LOL...sarcastic Yabu sounds..............HOT *whacked*
I loved this chapter!!!
i'm sad though...the story is close to the end...I loved it!!!
*summary!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!*
*glompz u*
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Date: 2011-01-12 01:58 pm (UTC)*glomps*
yeah, he surely sounds hot there..
XDDD
thx tsu-chan !!
*glomps again*
well, it can't be helped ne~
it has to end sumhow~
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Date: 2011-01-12 02:08 pm (UTC)thanks so much for this, I was so worried!!!
and thank for this update!
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Date: 2011-01-12 02:10 pm (UTC)i was too~
XDD
and thx for reading too~
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Date: 2011-01-12 02:46 pm (UTC)Yabu-kun will always be the big brother.. but it's more like a father comforting his son here.. or was it mother? *whacked*
i'll wait for ur update Rei-chan^^~ it was sad that it's going to end, but there's Infinity^^!
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Date: 2011-01-13 01:20 am (UTC)he's so cute ne~
*squeals with u*
a mama of course !! yabu-kun is a mama !!
*whacked*
pls wait ne~
yeah, but it has to end sumwhere ne~
but yeah again !! there's still infinity !!
and my JEOL fanfic sequel.. maybe..
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Date: 2011-01-13 08:33 am (UTC)haha XD.. Yabu-kun is the mommy.. though i can't say that it's not fitting.. coz it entirely is XP *whacked too*
yay~! i'll be waiting Rei-chan^^~!
ah, do u mind giving me the link to download summary? coz i can't find it anywhere T_T..
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Date: 2011-01-13 10:03 am (UTC)so wanted to watch his old movies !!
plz wait ne~
sure, u can find it from
http://king-kun.livejournal.com/45460.html
for the smaller size.. but it was uploaded in MU, that's why i didn't downloaded it~ since it was too long to get..
http://jesameresu.livejournal.com/11058.html
or u can find it there too.. it was uploaded in MF, so was faster to download~ but it has a watermark, credit to SIMILE~
don't forget to say thx~
XDD
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Date: 2011-01-13 11:36 am (UTC)i will.. i definitely will XD..
39 Rei-chan XDDDD~!! u just saved my life^^ *whacked* don't worry, i'll say my thanks^^~ *tackles n hugs u tightly*
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Date: 2011-02-19 12:16 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2011-02-20 03:28 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2012-01-06 07:45 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2012-01-06 10:05 am (UTC)he's stupid, but he's confused, so.. forgive him please ?
thanks for reading and commenting~